Wow...

So, this morning started off good, I thought. Kids and I got up. Got dressed, ate breakfast and headed for the bus stop. Waited for the bus. Everything is going good. The bus was pulling up, I gave Caitlin a hug and a kiss and she immediately tells me she is not going on the bus. What? Why is that? She pulls away and doesn't want to get on the bus. She starts crying when I take her hand and lead her to the bus. She is crying as I carry her onto the bus and crying when she sat in her seat. I gave her big hugs and kisses and promised to see her when she gets off the bus today. She was crying as the bus pulled away and then I started to cry again.

Am I a horrible mom? I feel awful! I just sent my daughter away crying on a school bus! Why would I do that? But I know she needs to go to school and I know she needs to take the bus. Man...this school thing so far is kicking my butt! When does it get easier? Did I do the wrong thing? Should I have not made her take the bus? I don't know....but right now I am feeling awful and I wish I could hold my baby!